As I write this, I have been on estradiol pellet implants and androgen blockers for six weeks. I am about halfway through the intense process of having my facial hair permanently removed via electrolysis. I am working through setting up consults for various surgeries. For most of my life I considered transitioning to female as something I just hoped I never would need to do. I was scared of it. I always seemed to get by as a man pretty well, even though I knew something was really off. I am not ashamed of the man I was for 42 years. I think Lance Hart was at the very least, a decent man.
A few months ago things seemed to drastically change. Simply put, I could not go on presenting as a man anymore. I became 100% sure that I needed to transition to female. I don’t have to words to explain it any more than that at this time. So, we’re just going to see how this goes.
I consider myself non-binary, but I feel the need to present myself to the world as female. That might not make any sense to a lot of people, but it makes sense to me.
As far as the internet and mainstream media are concerned, my name is now Lucy Hart. I prefer she/her pronouns. I get it. I still mostly look like a dude. I’m not gonna jump on anyone’s case if they mess that up, at least for a while anyway.
I like to think there is a lot more to me than my gender. It would be pretty fucking sad if all I had going on was my gender… that’s like day 1 life level shit. So there’s that. Maybe this isn’t really that big of a deal 🙂
If I’m lucky, I’ll be able to perform in porn as a trans woman. I would like that very much. I am trying to keep my expectations realistic. Transitioning at my age just might not be sexy enough the cut the mustard, but I’m going to give it everything I got. I did this little video on Instagram a few weeks ago, and it might answer a lot of other questions: